hello(:
okay like finally i can get through the freaking internet connection.that stupid taiwan earthquake totally shooke my whole connection.uhh,i felt so so buggened alright!zomg.so okay.christams season's been great,uh huh.first of all,everything/anything that's happening between hunn and i,is totally UNOFFICIAL.yes,i'm insane,so be it.i dont have,even the slightest clue whats going through my,dying majorly puny brain.sometimes,i'd just scream at myself and go fuck it,i dont fucking care.then i'll cry,then i'll think about it again.so i'm not going to go fucking it anymore.uhh,honestly i care,coz at the end of the day,i'm gonna look like some fucking mean asshole in the book of history.so what if,the confession was made,from the both of us,and i did screw up whatever i had with hunn.i guess rockstar was worth it.i know i wont screw it up this time.coz i dont plan to.its too fucking confusing.i'm waiting for my fucking funeral,God forbids.uhh,i've had enough of people making me tear.soooooooo,

my new year resolutions:
dont screw up things with rockstar,

dont screw up things with the family,

pass 5 subjects during assesments,

do good for N levels,and move to sec 5,

be a good girl,

no more tears in 2007. (:

uh huh,all must be accomplished.okay,so brother,tina and i watched night at the museum.AWESOME(: okay,i'm outie.TOODLES(:




;i miss the happiness,i miss the tears.

hello(:
so christmas is coming.yay!i'm happy and kinda sad at the same time though.uhh goodness.i dont know whats happening.uh huh,oh well.these few days brother and i have been spending time with godparents.i swear,they're the best(: at least there are people who actually that niceeeeee.haha okay.i wanna change my phone.its damn screwed already.ohh mann.

another sad song with nothing to say.

i feel kinda grumpy now.sooooo,ohh ya!you know the shit that i was talking about in the previous post was tina.uh huh.ohh whatever.i'm outie.TOODLES(:




;i asked you to stay,but you said there's no way.

hello(:
so okay,i've been hooked on to lithium for too freakingggggg long man.and it ends tonight by all american rejects.haha,i melt for these songs(: life's been okay i guess?uh huh.i wanna meet roland and jen soon.coz i've got so much to tell them.so some shit needs to use the com.i'll explain later>:(



;soon i know i'll wake from this dream.

hello(:
so okay,i guess everything's out?am i being a dumb ass,yet again?fuck it really.i'm really giving up on myself here.when i think i'm done with trying,i let it out.zomg,okay so maybe i should look at it in a more,positive way?but even before anything,i'm feeling scared already.i'm hoping for NO SLASHING MOMENTS IN 2007.please please,i'm begging already.i'll bend on my knees if i have to.
i want you to know that i'm not just some other girl who's dying to have someone to hold her hand.coz honestly,i already am.and i dont wanna let go,but if this chance that i'm given is going to hurt me yet once again.then,i havent any choice have i?

I can't hold on to me,wonder what's wrong with me.

so maybe i'm half doomed,half lucky.oh man,fuck it.
so mas went back to indonesia already): i miss her.mum's helping me with the housework and cooking and stuff.we feel tired by the end of the day.haha,but its a super fresh cool feeling.coz our cooking is to die for,literally.sooooo,we've watched open season and happy feet and texas chainsaw massacre.niceeeeee.texas chainsaw was so gory alright.but its nice and it was true like once before?zomg.i'm outie.TOODLES(:




;prove to me that you're not just some other prince in some fairytale.

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zomg,i just came back.so okay,maybe not JUST,it was like 2 days ago?uh huh.shopping at KL was oh so fun.we went for a one day trip to malacca and made our way down to portuguese settlement.zomg,the place was so so unbelievable alright.okay firstly,almost all of them there are eurasian/portuguese and plus plus,its freakingggggggggg hot alright.i thought i was gonna like burn at any second.uh huh.but it was a really nice experience.so okay,lets talk about shopping.i bought that D&G handbag and shades,and a coach wallet,zomg.i'm so so happy(: mummy bought her burberry handbag and wallet.uh huh.i feel so happy with my handbag alright!i saw countless hot people,and i mean most of them are guys?zomg,my eyes were like going crazy like some jackpot machine.haha,oookay.oh whatever,anyways,i saw the whole season 1-5 of QAF,and i felt so deprived,so i'm gonna watch it again.and no,i didnt get season 5 of course,if my papa sees it,he'll just kill me on the spot.QAF season 5 was begging and screaming,"TIA TIA TIA!JUST BUY THE FUCKING THING.THE WHOLE FUCKING SEASON PLAYS FOR 780 FUCKING MINUTES,AND YOU COULD ACTUALLY SWOON BRIAN FOR THAT LONG!".zomg,yes i know.how can i ever like such a fucking gay show?!haha,because bryan and justin looks so hot together(: i'm gonna go to godmum's house now.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;please forgive me,i cant stop loving you.get going and shoot me if its wrong.

hello(:
so okay,went to clarke quay with parents,brother and grandparents.went for dinner,walked around for awhile.supposed to go for that river taxi thing,but in the end we didnt.instead,we ended up at the haagen dazs parlour.we had like that freeaaaaaakinggg huge chocolate fondue.zomg,and i was having cough?so it kinda had that awesome and irritated sensation.haha.
i feel kinda shity now.oh man.i'm gonna miss people now.i'm gonna leave singapore tomorrow morning,and i meant morning as in 5 plus?zomg,yes i know i'm sick.but shopping and having a banging holiday with my family is the major biggie.haha,okay i heard the song Dear Mr President by Pink.its so damn niceeeeee,zomg.go Pink,KICK ASS!yay baby!shoppinggggggggggggg.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;i know better,coz you said forever.

hello(:
so okay,this i must say.i dreamt about CHANNING TATUM yesterday.zomg,and when i woke up,i began crying): i dreamt that he died.i felt so so buggened.i didnt know why.but why the fuck must he die in my dreams!i felt so sad alright): aww,channing's so cute yes?oh man.i felt like dying.how could i ever dream about something like that?humpf.after watching she's the man and again step up with roland,i felt better already.i was majorly buggened.
okay,so i'm down with flu): likw just before leaving for kl?zomg,if it worsens,my papa's totally gonna go ballistic on me.ahaha,i feel so clueless.like major.zomg,i'm outie.TOODLES(:




;for every piece of me that wants you, another piece backs away.